yesterday co-workers bring bad news from boss:it seems that there are backup team existence! and he explicitly said: that key to success of the current project is long years cooperation between companies, NOT because we have relation with some guy in the company.
what did he mean?
what did he want to message us?
after nearly one hour arguments i left for home, feel lost and sad.
till to this morning 2:00am, cannot sleep, seems something force me to think this thing,no way to stop. memorizing all information about the things from now to very very beginning. again and again.
all the decisions and concludes were made based on the messages , the messages were brought back ,stained,filtered,affected with personal emotion.
