Foreword: We all have a memoir
On December 30, 2019, I uploaded a college graduation photo on Qzone, a day when a group of hip-hop friends took pictures together.
On December 31, 2020, I went to eat barbecue with the roommates of the entire dormitory of k+k (Zhang, Luo, Liu 1, Liu 2, Yang, Tang). Everyone deliberately posted a post in the circle of friends in the early morning. Moments of friends, greetings to girlfriends to girlfriends (they talk about long-distance relationships 
).
That day was also a deep memory. Because it was too late, I couldn’t catch the subway back to my place of residence, so it was the first time 
I 
booked a night in an internet cafe (they persuaded me ). That night was really as uncomfortable as it was. They all play black games on the sidelines. As for me, I am not interested and can't play. I can only watch TV and play small games while driving the machine, and then go to bed on my stomach. In short, I just can't play that night. The game talent knows how to suffer. The next day the subway runs and rushes back to sleep. I am really sleepy. I guess they are a hundred times more active in playing games 
. Anyway, I don't understand the happiness.
On January 7, 2020, there was a place in Chongqing (forgot its name) to hold artificial snowfall and a food street. I went with K. I really didn’t see snow in those days in Chongqing, so I was a little curious about artificial What is snowfall, so I went to carpool with a few friends. I got a little bit of the snow sprayed by the staff. Haha, I did a mosaic. If I 
look closely, I can still see the white snow in my wardrobe. 
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On January 15, 2020, the school was closed for winter vacation. That was the last time in 2020 and K went to Shapingba (Chongqing) for hot pot skewers.
I will go home on the 17th and return to school on February 2 , 2020 (the school was in class on February 3 ).
I checked the tickets online at home on the 18th, but it didn’t work.
At that time, the epidemic had not yet started. On January 24 , 2020 , New Year’s Eve, I suddenly heard that there was an epidemic a few days ago, but at that time everyone thought it was not serious and didn’t pay much attention to it. They knew there was an epidemic, so everyone was very conscious. From the first to the third day of the new year, everyone rarely gathers to have fun, and our sisters have never gone out in peace at home 
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Later, the epidemic became more serious and most schools postponed the start of school. I thought it would be postponed at most around February 18th , but it was not. I looked forward to it for a long time and I was disappointed. The main reason is that we are about to go out for internships, and can no longer be so comfortable at home. Although I am not very comfortable, haha, the children in rural areas must work with their parents. In this way, we have done a lot of farm work with our parents while we are at home. This task is to finish planting the corn, and everything is almost the same. It's done , but although it is very hard, we are very happy. After all, it can help parents relieve a little pressure, and it is not easy for parents in the world.
Here I want to say to my parents "I love you, Dad. I love you, Mom."
In the past, there were times when parents were more or less unpleasant, but people always have to experience something to learn to grow slowly.
On February 7, 2020 , teachers started online teaching.
On February 25th, 2020 , my grandfather fell ill and got the things that should be taken that night. It was already 8 or 9 p.m. when the infusion was started. So my grandma and sister took care of grandpa in the hospital, and Yaoshu and Yaoniang at night Came to the hospital to check the situation, and then went back.
In the evening, I just posted this circle of friends, and then it felt like I had done something bad. After a while, someone called me one after another. My brothers, sisters, and grandma’s children all called, and then I truthfully told my grandma. I did something, and my grandma didn't say anything, so I gave my mobile phone to my grandma and asked her to talk to the person who called them and explain 
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My grandfather stayed in the hospital for about two weeks. Due to the physical condition of the elderly, special things always happen during the infusion every day. Fortunately, my sister and I are by my side. If my grandma is alone, I don't know what to do. We were terrified for a long time. Grandpa’s hands were infused every day, which caused the hands to be particularly swollen. When the nurses gave the needles, they couldn’t even find blood vessels. One couldn’t find one to replace the other. In short, Grandpa’s hands were almost all pinholes, and I looked distressed. died.
I touched grandpa's hand
On March 9, 2020, when I was at home, there were so many unsatisfactory things. I was unavoidably a little impetuous. I saw that many of my classmates started to look for work and internships. I was still at home and nothing.
On March 11, 2020 , due to professional issues, I had some conflicts with my parents. I said that I plan to go to Shanghai for an internship. My parents told me not to go so far, and let me find a job in Guiyang. Forget it, I don’t listen. Besides, I don't want to stay in my hometown, I just want to go out and have a look, then. . .
Many things just can’t be explained in detail with their parents, and they can’t be understood. Knowing that their parents are for their own good, but still don’t agree with them in their hearts, it is rebellious in their eyes.
On March 12, 2020, I took a series of photos with my sisters at home, haha, as expected, I am the oldest compared to 2003 and 2005
My cute little nephew, love you so much 
, Jiaxu baby
Two cute babies, hee hee, they are my favorite Yazi, niece Titi and nephew Jiaxu
On March 13, 2020 , the uncle passed away (grandfather's elder brother). On the day I heard the news, my mother and sister worked in the field. Dads went to the grave for the uncle. Because it was a new grave, we made it earlier.
My uncle is 90 years old this year, and I can’t get any food recently. Every one of us knows that my uncle is running out of time, but when I hear bad news, it still feels very sudden. My mother said that when I went to see him this morning , The uncle is still talking to me, why in the afternoon. . . .
I comforted myself in this way when I was in the field. After I go back, I must not cry or cry, but the atmosphere after returning home is too depressing and heavy. I,,,,
On March 17, 2020, Sister Sha started school. Originally, I planned to go to Bijie with her, but my uncle passed away suddenly, so I postponed it for a few days. The day my sister went to school, she went alone because Everyone was busy with a series of things that happened at home. I remember that Wen (brother) sent her to the car, and we were not very clear about the specific situation.
This is the second time I have personally experienced the death of my loved ones, and it is also the second time in my life that I have seen a si person. Even though I knew some funerals in other people's homes before, I never really saw a dead person when I went to a banquet.
On November 5, 2019, the uncle (grandparents' eldest son) who was in his early 50s passed away. I still can't imagine how grandparents were feeling at that time. My elder brother and sister (the uncle's son and daughter) will never have a father, and we will never have an uncle. There will never be one in the family during the New Year's Eve dinner.
At that time I was still going to school in Chongqing. I took leave of absence and returned to Bijie the next day. When I got home, I didn’t immediately go to see my brothers and sisters (they were filial piety in front of the uncle Ling). The first moment I put down my luggage was to find my grandpa As soon as I looked at me, I kept pulling me, and I started crying. When I was on the road, I said to myself, in front of my grandparents, I must not cry, I must not cry, but looking at my grandpa’s tears, I am true Can't help it, really.
On the day I sent my uncle up the mountain, I opened the coffin when I was in the soil. This was the last time I saw my uncle and the first time I saw a si person. I don’t think I can forget my uncle lying motionless in the cold coffin when I opened the coffin. of. I still remember that he was in good health before, how could this happen?
I have always been a hard-to-express person, but all my faces in a bad mood will show up.
It’s funny too. There is only one photo of the uncle in my phone album, the only one.
The people in the family are not very good at expressing their ideas. Outsiders seem to be living normally, as if the uncle's departure has no effect on them, but that is in the eyes of outsiders.
Even though birth, old age, sickness and death are the norm in the world, you and I will not be exceptions.
On November 10, 2019, after sending my uncle to the mountain, I returned to Chongqing to go to school. There was almost an accident on the road. I haven't dared to tell my family so far. I only told K. Fortunately, it was surprising and scary.
On March 18, 2020 , I plan to return to Chongqing. During the holidays, I interviewed many companies online, but I still felt that on-site interviews were more reliable, so I planned to leave home.
In the evening, my family said a lot of things to me, to be good for me, to ask me to take care of myself, etc., I remember them one by one. That night, grandparents took advantage of other people's carelessness, and quietly gave me a few hundred yuan. This is not the first time this kind of thing, every time they are not paying attention. I know that grandparents love me, who told me that I was brought up by them. There is a saying that "who brings the big pain", this is not a problem.
On March 19, 2020, I sent the uncle up the mountain in the morning. I didn't go this time. I didn't want to go. I didn't want to see the opening of the coffin when I entered the earth. So I chose to burn the paper and kowtow before the spirit (the master said that someone must be here).
In the afternoon, the people who had been sent to the mountain came back. Dad took me to the neighborhood committee to get a health certificate (during the epidemic, I need it for entry and exit). Later, my brother is going back to Bijie’s home. I got in his car by the way. From Sister Sha's place, send her some home vegetables and the like.
Sister Sha was in the third year of junior high school. I had been to Sister Sha twice, once when I came back from Chongqing. In the evening, she went to the station to pick me up and stay with her for one night, and went home with her father the next day.
The second time was this time, Sha was in school, but the get out of class hadn’t finished. My brother and my second uncle (grandma’s second daughter) went to her side. Although I went there before, I still can’t remember her. In which unit, I found it after searching for a long time with my brother.
After bringing up the things my mother asked me to bring her, my brother and second uncle went home. I stayed here where Sha lived and waited for her, Sha finally came back from class, I told her about my sad process 
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In the evening, let Sha take me to the shop where Wen (brother) works. My hair is too long. I am going to cut it short and change hair color. Sha, K, and me, the three of us went directly to where Wen works. Wen was in a meeting, told us to wait for a long time, and then the three of us went downstairs to eat. After we came back, Wen was still in a meeting and could only wait.
The text was finally over, his friends told him something about getting my hair, and then he left work, there were only four of us left in the shop.
It was the first time I felt Wen wash my hair, cut my hair, and dye my hair. . . . Haha, great, let me talk about it here, he is single, you can introduce him 
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During the coloring process, Sha went downstairs to bring a supper to Wen. They did not eat regularly, and it was not easy.
Wen finished the meal and then processed my hair almost. She also cut her hair short. After finishing everything, it was already around one in the morning. So we went back together. Wen went to the dormitory arranged in the store. Sha and I went to Sha’s residence, and K went to a friend’s residence.
On March 20, 2020, when I got up, Sha was already going to class. At noon, I and K bought tickets to Chongqing. For the last time in 2020, I ate a bowl of mutton noodles in Bijie, Guizhou, and then experienced a long journey. Waiting in the car. . .
When I arrived in Chongqing, it was already around 11 o'clock in the evening, and then I went to my friend.
On March 21, 2020, I went shopping with K, and then bought some dishes with my friends and prepared to cook for the evening. After staying in Chongqing for a few days, I took care of everything that should be handled, and went to school to say the last goodbye to the teacher. The teacher told me and K about a lot of things that need to be paid attention to, and we all keep it in mind.
The train ticket to Hangzhou at 9 o'clock in the morning on March 25, 2020 , a full 26 hours of hard seats, is too uncomfortable, the two 
who have no money , the experience on the train will not be elaborated, they are all tears. . .
I never thought I would come to Hangzhou to find a job. I planned to go to Shanghai before, but I chose Hangzhou for some special reasons.
On March 26, 2020, when I arrived in Hangzhou, it was about 12 o'clock. Fortunately, I read the information of job-hunting apartment (Xiacheng District, Hangzhou) on the Internet in advance. After we got out, we rushed to the job-hunting apartment in large and small packages. The first time I came to Hangzhou, I was not familiar with the place where I was born. The two of me really felt that my soil was scumming, haha.
Arrived at the job hunting apartment, I met Ling (a roommate of my university, she came to Hangzhou a few days in advance, java) is going to a company for an interview, we talked for a while, I and K arrived at the apartment, checked in information, and I Ling is a dormitory. There are four-person room and six-person room. I chose the six-person room silently.
On March 27, 2020, there were two interviews today. The first day of the interview was full of confidence. However, due to the unfamiliar place in the middle of the interview, I took the wrong car several times when I came back, and the capital was embarrassing.
During the few days I first came to Hangzhou, I interviewed every day, and it happened to be raining every day that week. Haha, I was very confident when I interviewed the two companies in one day. I came to Hangzhou for more than a dozen interviews. I was still very diligent. As long as there are interviews, I will go. I haven't refused. What I want is more interviews and comparisons.
The funny thing is that when I went for an interview for the first time, in Yuhang District, when he asked me how much salary I wanted, I said 8500, haha, I don’t know who gave me confidence. When I asked about the salary in the interview afterwards, I said it was 6000. This year, Hangzhou is sluggish, and the salary that just came out is generally low. I thought that the salary in Hangzhou was high for development (I am too food).
I think I'm doing well, but I don't know it's just that I don't know the heights of the sky, the fledgling little girl. The lesson is a lot, but still full of expectations for life.
On April 5, 2020, I had two offers in hand, I thought there should be no problem. So after the interview, I went to the West Lake to climb the mountain with K, and I was so happy.
Sharing a wave of photos taken at that time, it is also the first time to go to the West Lake to play, I feel that everything is very new and the weather is also very good.
First, I went to Qixia Mountain and went to the West Lake after going down the mountain.
It was still cold at the time, so I wore a bit thick
Passersby
It's pretty, it should be peach blossom
My hair was pretty short at the time
Later, a series of things happened midway, the offer flew 
, and my heart was suddenly shocked. I no longer had the confidence that I had when I first came out for an interview.
On April 11, 2020 , I went to a company for a trial job, and I felt pretty good 
.
On April 12, 2020, I was notified to leave in the afternoon of the next day. After all, I paid by mistake 
, and the boss fired me. A startup company. What I want is work experience + ability. My intern is not capable enough. The boss paid me more than 300 wages very humanely. The problem is that I haven't worked for two days. I took the package and left after I got my wages. After I left, I went to look for a house. It rained heavily that day, and it felt so cold. It’s just as miserable as it is, so it’s really the kind that is unforgettable. I didn’t get anything. I didn’t find a satisfactory house. I just lost my job. It’s already late at night when I returned to my place. It’s unbearable to look back, that day was my 20th birthday, what a deep memory.
I deeply felt the severe beatings of the society, so I posted this article that only I know.
In the next few days of interview, I was really discouraged several times, but I didn't give up.
On April 18, 2020, the company that gave me the offer before, the person their company hired also left, so he asked me to try it. I went and got it all morning. The boss felt that I was not capable enough and he called I finished a project in two days, haha, funny, I finally know why the person they hired before left. The entire company does not have a developer, just a front-end, and the back-end is still recruiting slowly. It’s not like I said. His project cannot be completed in two days with less than 3 years of work experience. Maybe I can’t do it. Goodbye.
On the same day, a company also gave me an offer. Due to the pressure of life, I directly agreed.
On April 20, 2020 , I was officially employed.
I have stayed in this company until now, and it has been so long in a blink of an eye. From being afraid of being suddenly dismissed, to quickly turning to normal, to turning to normal, to the present, the middle process is mixed with a lot of helplessness that is hard to tell.
It’s almost October in a blink of an eye, and it’s not easy for everyone. This memoir in early 2020, I suddenly forgot how long it took me to write it down. Although the text is very clichéd, the key is that I only wrote it until April. On the 20th, there are more than 300 days a year, and there are a lot of trivial matters every day. It really needs to settle down to record it with writing.
The days that can be recorded in words must be particularly meaningful. Of course, every day is meaningful, but there will always be a special day.
This article started from yesterday afternoon. Of course, when I wrote it, I was fishing during work. Yesterday, from 16:00 to 17:00, the company trained some Linux operations online. After that, I started to want to write. A story about yourself.
When I got off work at 17:30, my colleagues all left. I thought about it. I would definitely be lazy on weekends. I would just write a little more today. It was about 6:30 when I left. I couldn't help but feel happy.
I was in a good mood on the way back from get off work, so I picked up my phone and took a photo to record my mood. Hee hee, there is a saying, the photo is a photo, I am myself, if I feel uncomfortable, please take the photo. Has nothing to do with me
I turned on the computer today and continued the unfinished record of codewords. Unknowingly, it is now 17:24. Time flies so fast. My record for the first ten days of 2020 is also over.
To be continued. . .