"Shengruxiahua" I've seen the most insightful discussion of life, used to seeing their unexamined, accustomed to their arrogance. Do not know why every time I see their eyes, they exude the feeling is confusion, is blurred, it is to sell ourselves short. Life for them is just a brief moment and just. Unfortunately, they ignore the good things around, ignoring the wonderful life, but ignoring the kind of freedom when fighting.
How short people's life in the years of long history, in this limited time, and some people live very decadent, there are people who live very aggressive; some people live very difficult, there are people who live very rich; some people live very frustrated, there are people who live chic. This life is really wonderful big stage, you play in this arena in which one role?
There was a time I lived very decadent, very depressed. It began: his girlfriend walked out. I am living in a crucial stage, suddenly fall into a low life. As the product is about to enter the market, increasing the pressure, so she did not collapse into the abyss of it? In the near-collapse of the day, as not to delay the progress of the works, I stick with it continue to work, but fortunately that time many of his colleagues to accompany me to relax, if not enlighten them, I must have had a crash, could not complete the job on time . Even so, those days my life is still very depressed, Chafanbusi, had less than one hundred and thirty kilos, I look down to one hundred and ten kilos, the whole person is. . . . . . I planted the seeds of hatred psychology, I want to cross this threshold, I want to get back the lost smile. People are so strange, when you planted hatred, you will suddenly feel so easy, all the pressure and displeasure have become a driving force, with the momentum I finished this project, with a different kind of victory left Jinan.
After that, I though for a long time to get back the lost smile, I can still feel that he is still living in her shadow, because I only have to work non-stop, non-stop writing code , as long as the brain does not stop running, I I will feel very full, not pain.
Things turn for the better after in Nanjing.
First came to the ancient capital, I feel the people here a bit cold, there is no sense of intimacy and forthright northerners. He shut, I was just a passing here, after tonight I do not know where it tomorrow, I think. People will not be interested in the transfer location change, reading the newspaper is one of my hobbies, after each lunch I would go buy a street kiosk "Yangzi Evening News", enjoy reading.
At this time, I always see a simple dress, skin side black woman carrying a small bag of fruit something like the entrance to a company, whether it is wind and rain, or sun and rain. At first curious, after admire, then envy. Before I came presumably she would rather have it this case, that person must be very happy, the family can eat something sent every day at lunch, that this is what kind of comfortable? Even Zaikuzailei in the company that's worth it. I can not help but think about their own jealousy up, look at the people, look at yourself, what kind of life do?
This Fall always makes impulse.
One day, I finally unable to bear, walked up to talk to greet her, she surprised a moment, her instinctive grasp of packet filled with fruit.
I smiled: You do not nervous, I just want to ask you a question, you are not always so send him a packet of fruit or something like it?
She puzzled nodded.
I asked: Do not you tired of it?
She said: no.
Because of her poor health, his family as the main source of power, there is no longer any room for error, and she has done is to try to reduce his stress, pressure to bear his part, let him go on freedom struggle, he was good they will be truly happy in this house.
I'm speechless.
Perhaps this is the profound meaning of life where it, for your family, for a commitment to a dream, reluctant to pay, not vertical blooming brilliant flame, it will shine, stick to a commitment in the ordinary, vertical is bland, but also bear a fruitful, as her lover, he will be willing to pay for her, this life is not it make sense? His struggle will be more clear?
If there is such a person behind you, you will unexamined it? You will be blurred? You will also mediocrity it? For such a person, or a promise, or a belief, to fight, to fight, would not lofty, can only succeed at the moment, can not fail.
Looking at her receding figure, I muttered, I was not what gave up, is not the re-examine themselves, to go its own new way of it? Such hate her what is the point? To really live and not very meaningful to her, is open your mind to embrace a new mission, a new life, embrace the struggle, let yourself become Toyozane up.
Life is bland, you only add a little spice to it will become delicious. To those who dare to struggle on the same beach-goers between storms that would be full of passion, life was colorful. Perhaps the only moment of success and happiness, and that in a short life, but also a milestone, you can respond to the world that you once had.