Summary for so many years, no filial piety, and finally his suffering, the poor parents.
I, Lin Feng Shan, was born in a family of six. I was the eldest of father and mother, and two sisters, and a brother.
Grew frail, my parents would care a lot extra. Good eating and drinking, all showed me eat more, get a brother and sister
But a lot less.
Dad to drive a tractor, the back of my university, he opened the Mount. Now he's at work to live. Mom, long thin, gave birth to me
We have four children, no one to help take care of children. I can only take care of themselves, pull down a lot of the root cause. The family was poor, my grandfather died young, leaving a father
These liabilities. Mom and Dad tractors go early just to make money. I forty-five at the age of two or three younger siblings all the time, let a few
A son at home, she and her father to make money. Behind my mother to pick fruit to sell door to door along the street, and then later also sold oysters. Later that enter the factory,
Do terrazzo head of physical technology live. Done for many years, a lot down the root cause. Kulei mother's life is very hard.
Dad is actually similar, wind and sun, the whole person is black skinny. A young man, it is a very handsome image. child
Girls raised more training four children, drained Mom and Dad's hard work. Later, her mother was seriously ill, worked hard life, but also suffer from old age
Seriously ill suffering.
Come to talk about Lin Feng mountain is extremely hateful. I am a meek, timid, introverted, greedy, fun. In elementary school, junior high school period, also
Considered disappointing, study considered excellent. Although fun, Actually, I'm learning to let parents worry about. It can be considered the pride of their parents. Just compare constitution
Weak, middle period, gastrointestinal function is relatively weak, gave birth to several diseases, bloating bulging, he looked like a medicine to take some medicine. Behind his head up
Moss, chemists seen for several years is good, until sophomore was cured.
In high school, there are four things sad reminder of the impact of a lifetime. The first thing, the beginning of high school accommodation is a two bed,
I wear very thick quilt, quilt shop with thin, I'll share with quilt covered. Then, infected skin inflammation, perineal
unit. People see a doctor, buy cream applied just fine. How I treat not mend. The patient has tortured me for a long time. Rear
Because the surface stimulate the penis, one day for the first time ejaculation.
The second thing, I like to read, he went out to rent school books to read. As a result, access to pornographic novel, yellow cartoon,
Since then embarked on the road of adultery, masturbation contracted bad habits.
The third thing, when I was a sophomore, went to Internet cafes, from opening the road fallen. Because addicted to games, comics, animation,
Even pornographic pictures, pornographic novel, yellow video. It also led to my studies landslide type fell from a top student, and finally reduced to
Test to a local Fujian third batch of undergraduate school. If you learn to my level, admitted to universities is still very promising.
The fourth thing, in order to play the game, when the high school senior, I will take learning as an excuse to move off campus to live. Indulging in a cafe more
Hair out of hand. Later, a student and sharing time, because renting a more humid environment, no ventilation. The students infected with tuberculosis.
In the fourth year after that, in my senior year, I have tuberculosis, vomiting blood, was taken to hospital 120 emergency.
Parents money is not easy, hard toil. On filial piety, I made a lot of mistakes:
The first had: in life, poor parents hard, but I did not pay would labor for the parents share those concerns around the house.
Second over: Parents hard to make money, but I profligate money, do not know how thrifty, selfish, do not know how parents share those concerns.
Especially to a college student, because I majored in computer science and technology undergraduate tuition more than ten thousand a year. It is just a
Tuition, to the back of the school to be with defaulted. Then give me 500 yuan a month for living expenses, often enough flowers to me. can
Pity that father time has opened the Mount, because of money, to run twelve days Morocco, lobbied for two or three hundred gave me remitted to Cary.
Third over: there is no study hard, neglect their studies, addicted to the game, there is no glory for the parents. Finally college, due to the lack of filial piety and sexual misconduct,
All retribution came home to roost. On the senior semester, suffering from a night on the itch of skin diseases, unable to sleep, I
On through the night to stay up all night, and finally the hospital vomiting blood. Then, a repair school year, a lonely whole year round, Fuzhou, Quanzhou
The process of treatment of tuberculosis. The final year of their studies to delay out of society, and to end up dropping out. Out of a job interview, your resume
Delivery, refund resume suffered a humiliating people. I went home later spent a year. A year later found on a web site development
The work, 500 yuan a month's salary. In later years are the two or three thousand of wages, not at all high-wage software development
样子。
第四过：不爱惜身体，邪淫伤身，消磨志气，更是大为不孝。本来素有大志的一个人，堕落成何人。直
到现在，我还在和邪淫的心瘾做艰苦斗争。如果你要从我现在的模样找到邪淫的痕迹，都是很
明显。太阳穴凹陷，弓腰驼背，原来脸颊塌陷，这几年修福修慧，脸上才重新长出肉来。然后，
因为邪淫 的原因，长期头痛，几乎每天都是头痛不舒服。至于邪淫的果报，还有找对象不顺利，
找不到，没 人愿意和我处对象。婚姻中，前期也是鸡飞狗跳，天天下班回来，又是另一个战场。
结婚前两年，我几乎都是三天两头晚上熬夜吵架，第二天强打精神上班。一直到现在，还是经常
被太太责骂的那种。由于无福无德，到现在生活艰辛，负债累累，每个月勉力维持生活。最近两
年，每天都要熬到两三点才能睡觉，一辈子是苦哈哈。
第五过：一直到现在，因为前面的种种代价，导致现在依然不能在经济上为父母分忧。自己的生活也是艰辛不已。
如果人生能够重来，我宁可咬牙改变自己，也不让父母这么艰辛，这么可怜。如果时间能够重来，我
一定好好读书学习，报答父母的恩情。可是一切都不能再重来了。我不管怎么悔恨流泪也只能默默擦干眼泪。
写到这里，我眼泪都止不住了。对不起，爸爸妈妈，是我错了，从头到尾，我都走错了人生道路，我连累你们
了，害你们操心了。在我最困难的时候，你们重来对我不离不弃，保护着我。一直到现在，我都已经33岁了，
你们还是不忍心，不舍得给我太多的压力。
你们是我的菩萨，是我这辈子最明亮的指明灯。你们对我的恩情，比天大，比海阔。我万死不辞，难以
报答，尽我生生世世也难以报答你们的生养恩情！